In Michigan I spoke to Amma about twice

Amma had said whre is durvasu with the peanuts to geeta one day
as Amma told me to bring it the next day
I finally brought it for Devi Bhava, Amma ate from her hand a lot of it
while talking about that book to some devotee through Radhika.

I told Amma I am born alone, live alone and die alone, but the viraha will kill me.
Amma said i-yo-h and gave me two chocolates and an apple

Later I told Amma again about the doctor and I had yelled at him.
Amma said be careful, you are a kalian.
And then told me doctors cant be told like that, he has to decide- like its his ego to do so,
you have to describe the symptoms that lead to that conclusion.

Amma told me to wear a neck brace for a month. I think while sleeping too and see if that works.

Then I told Amma I am leaving. It was very hard to leave.

Experiences of San Ramon Devi Bhava




First
I went up to Amma
with the peanuts
Amma said she is not going to eat them until later
and said Madhu had brought earlier

and then began talking about gayatri.gales
and her nonsense, she is and always was mentally distrubed

ammas room is 10 X 7 with the two patis
laksmi aka has been ammas attendant for 27 years

said that gale writing is like a pornography
dont read it keep it out of your mind

amma said even ramana maharshi and satya sai baba had devotees tried to kill them

amma said people tried to bring poison with food (3 women - 15 years devotees- madhu would later say this from amma-- and that amma told them all that she did for them )

anyways i told amma in the olden time we cut off their  head and make a mala to amma
and if a mother is insulted the children will never standy by, i got very emotional
and amma was laughing while darshan to other people sort of

i said we should cut their heads. and amma said that is not the way basically.

then amma spoke at length about this gales

how she insulted Suggudnana acchan
about his something.

i said one strand of hair and She - Amma can make a crore of vira bhadras.

amma simply smiled and kept talking about the gale and her shit.
how amma had anu had them write sort of.

amma told me dont read it
and dont keep it in your mind

so then later madhu went to see amma told about the dog
amma told him all mahtamas of the past- ramamna maharshi had such love for animals, they came of their own sake and in amritapuri the two dogs are ammas so they can stay even then there was some trouble amma told me had to pay 1 million rupees cause tumbin bit somebody ; these people harasss the tail and stuff.



amma told madhu people here dont know
also amma said my dog is pavam
apparently asha checi tried to say its not a puppy its this big
and madhu said its only 11 months
and amma told asha chechi are you listening through ur ear and seeing?


anyways so amma called me durvasa, and said oh i made him wait after making the peanuts.
and so she called me has i was sitting by the bhajan group.

and then Amma said get the peanuts
so i squeezed back there but didnt see it
amma said durvasa or something.

and then amma siad choke radhikas neck you better get it
then amma got upset at me and said i told you to keep it didnt i

then i said amma i can make another batch

madhu said he will go find it from sudha

so amma said then go get me a paripap vada and i ll eat it from you
and gita looked into my face

so i was about to and madhu came with the peanuts

and amma told me to get a spoon
but slyly and assuredly said oh we have one back here

and then i got to feed ammas mouth the peanuts in a spoon.
Radhika said take out the cumba (the stalks) and Amma looked at her with eyes - she had disturbed the moment i guess sort of- anyways so i gave it
and madhu said ok amma we will go
and amma told me to sit back there

and i did
dayamrita swami asked me to move. apparently his knee is not good
but then amma told me to sit again and i sat like a child on top of the wooden box.


and then i came around

and we talked  about  the dog

amma said they have rules here

and then everyone will bring their pet and there wont be space

and said but amma likes dogs
they are only creature to love niskama


i told amma about boss too


amma gave prasad

then i also said during darshan about - something - mahadeva- the right margam
and Amma loudly yelled in my ear you are my son dont worry- like it will be fine - in  a roaring tone as if i was far away

it was an incredible devi bhava

Amma told madhu oh i made him wait after making those peanuts all out there
and said look there is the durvasa sitting
and Amma told madhu to call me
amma pointed and then madhu did
i was dozing off kind of


then i almost moved my hand over this guy
and Amma said oh his leg is bad and he is still doing seva
and then i said oh and patted him




ah what amma said when she told me to sit back there
was you sit and laugh in moments  and feed me

Physical strength is
as important to withstand the strain of spiritual disciplines one
has to undergo, as intellectual acumen is incumbent to
understand the subtle truths of religion

Swami Vivekananda puts this quite clearly in his lecture
Sannyasa: Its Ideal and Practise. “You must try to combine in your
life immense idealism with immense practicality. You must be
prepared to go into deep meditation now and the next moment
you must be ready to go and cultivate these fields (meadows of
the Math). You must be prepared to explain the difficult
intricacies of the scriptures now, and the next moment to go and
sell the products of the fields in the market." This is a new
approach to the monastic ideal of India and it is based on the
concept that there is no contradiction between Aham Brahmasmi (I
am Brahman) and Tattvamasi (Thou art That). By closing the eyes a
spiritual aspirant can say “I am Brahman:” then, opening his eyes,
he can say “Thou art That” and with that attitude worship all
beings.



“The sannyasin, verily, is born into this world to lay down his life
for others, to stop the bitter cries of men, to wipe away the tears of
the widow, to bring peace to the soul of the bereaved mother, to
equip the ignorant masses for the struggle for existence, to
accomplish the secular and spiritual well-being of all through the
diffusion of spiritual teaching and to arouse the sleeping lion of
Brahman in all by throwing in the light of knowledge.”


For that monk, by whom not the smallest danger
even, is caused to created beings, there will be no danger from any
quarter after he is freed from his body
Samhita :: Manu

The pang of separation from the Beloved Lord cannot be described in human words, nor comprehended by the logical mind, but it can be felt by a devoted heart.

| Swami Aseshananda
Sri Ramakrishna Deva Order

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