Los Angeles Radisson 2nd day retreat

Satsang 6/18/09


First question: " Amma you are beautiful, - You are a sundari; We want to know your thoughts, do you have a headache, - you look more beautiful every day, while I am withering or well - he said he's losing hair, and growing uglier i guess - and yeah, he said amma can find a nice person( e.g. to marry? - he said something like he wanted to marry her- innocently- which everyone including the swami's laughed too)..Oh and what do mahatamas do when faced with each other? Their talking or whatever/.

Ammas Answer:: You say I am beautiful, but really am not, you are saying that out of prema, as that increases your soul awareness increases ( a parallel of this similar story is in Paramahamsa Ramakrishna's book by M.Gupta- about Kali Devi). Then Amma said like before we were meditating outside , and the cars, and planes were going, and Amma had said imagine all sounds to be Ma- And OM , she asked if everyone had an okay meditiation, if the noise bothers them- and people said " What noise?". Amma laughed, The swamis didnt translate that. But Amma referes to it here, she says to the swami just like all of you said you had no problem during the meditation; e.g. the cars going outside the gate which is visible, (we are in the Radisson- and not like the HIlton- there i s no pretty outdoor place- ) just the pool area, but everyone was squeezed in, either on the balcony stairs,and Amma spent time looking at everyone.
So she said, Just like you all said you had no problem during meditaiton with the cars, I have no problem with anything e..g thoughts, I am like a river I just flow. Then Amma said you are all my dream (sapna). And then to Ramakrishna Swami amma said ' you are all amma arent you? so then what is it. implying everyone is the soul. Amma also said she sees everyone has flowers. Like the sun rays reflected in many waters, or pots of water, so that same energy courses through people, and everyone. Even the wild flower in the jungle to Amma is the same. ( e.g. all types of devotees and children of Amma).
Then Amma proceeded to say that, (well she told the guy dont worry your handsome and all). Amma said about the mahatamas; its like two zeros coming together, or two mirrors looking at one another.

then someone asked about suicide. and amma said dont worry about past or future. live in the present. if you cannot do that it is difficult. leave the heavy burden to god. Otherwise in suicidie, you may be carrying 10 kilos today, and next life 100 kilos.

The other person asked about down syndrome; and amma said you have to be their eyes , ears ,and thinking- children that is- you have to do that, and it is difficult for parents, but that is the only way unless they invent something in the future to cope with it; but such things are not available now , so it is difficult and saddening but compassion alone is not enough, ; for a blind man just to feel pity is not enough, you have to help him. Same way, although Amma feels sad , that is not enough- you should (to the woman who asked the question) - you should help the kids. Oh yeah, and apparently these kids dont have that viveka discrimination nerve inside their head, so it is not possible for them to make discriminatory choices; hence the parent has to be that for them, they are children (regardless of age).

the first question was the best. He asked what Amma feels, or what she is. Amma said for her this is all a dream. in two points .one meaning sritshi kartav, the creatrix of the world (this point was no elucidated by amma- swamiji briefly mentions it) second- it is dream that everyone has peace, and that they can realize the soul.
she mentioned three things : be honest, be a witness ( becoming a witness to desire, so even when involved in the action- that you will have desire, and sorrow, you cannot escape it- but such is the nature of life, and instead of getting depressed, accept it, and become more of a witness) the first guy was a lawyer, and amma said you know two lawyers will talk amongst each other- e.g. argue forever- so you need a sakshi- a witness. e.g. the judge. Amma was saying such should the attitude be when you take actions whatever they maybe. Being a witness will help remove the negative feelings associated with it, and lessen the desire more than just indulging. something like that.
Yesterday I overhead Amma saying on the phone to some bramachari- be happy. or something ,and aren't you Amma's pearl.

Oh Yeah- mommy went for darshan, and Amma said that I was sitting over there ( in the right side by the first row in a chair- in a way like I was about to get liberation then and there. And Amma leaned over smiled, raised her eyebrows, large eyes- ) And i went over and asked amma, amma said the way your sitting like your going to get saksha (liberation) right now.