On Soul Eater Episode 51- Final episode. At first I did not like the series as much. The anime seemed more kiddish, and the story loose. But as it gathered, I got more into the series. I think this has just the right amount of that silly light joking mood- although I myself am not a huge fan of it- I like samurai style, one cut, good sequence, boom, fight, death. Final cuts. Get it? like when someone dies, thats it, its over. Well, in these types- like Soul Eater, the finality of fight sequences are not like that, no one really completely dies I think, kind of a shame for the idea of a tragedy in story. But still, I found Soul Eater, really interesting, and found myself getting excited toward the end- I especially liked the fight between Mifune and Blackstar. That was my favorite actually, more than Maka who is the central character along with Soul. I found the former fight to resemble the samurai style- epic fight sequences. Was good. Well, with this last one... the Kishin, and the story will be done. sigh. It' s always this feeling , no? At the end of a good series. I remember watching Six Feet Under. Five seasons, 30 episodes each. Man that was epic at the end. I don't know how many have watched that series, but I think I watched it last semester- When I really did not hang out with anyone, just exercise, school, shows. Was a good routine. Not so fun anymore. My mom could sense those vibrations, from like when I was living alone, and to now. But oh well, not for too long, and I'll be back here I guess. I like the quiet, and my own routine, just need to find activities to fill up the day besides smoking. Got to bring back my bike, lot of beautiful trails to ride on out here. One thing I really enjoy about here, the hills I can see in the background, and the clear sky.

new day.

gotten used to the warm weather here now. its sunny with undertones of cold winds.
Had tried some herbals yesterday, think I may call a delivery. Man, I called one time this guy- he had such good stuff. He had a half smoked blunt in the big white tinted truck he drove, and so i pulled on it- was some blueberry or something, very good .

its a lot colder here. cant stand that. the air is cleaner. but inside its cold. i am always amazed by the simplicity when i come here. its like i forgot everything I left behind in LA. and the simple quiet, is where I belong. Gonna check some pals later tonight, and maybe another tomorrow who lives in San Rafael.

Music is great. But there is a more subtle sound even deeper than that. In scripture it is referred to as the soundless sound. This is in reference to meditation. When meditation arises, the mind will have experiences unlike before. Typically this can take a lifetime of practice but the right guide can quicken the journey.

The floaters in my eyes are increasing. This gets troubling at times. Worried about my sight.

Nothing to smoke.

Going to finish Soul Eater. Finished epsiode 47 on Friday.

i am at home now. Until tuesday. got here last night- thursday night. Had some rain , so the flight was delayed. Quite a few young girls on the flight. A white girl from portland with this white guy in a suit caught my eye . her eye caught mine. But anyways. its nice to be here. the spiritual vibrations are strong. mostly due to my mother. The strength of years of spritual practice, the development of a divine relationship , who can I explain any of these to? I have never met anyone, besides my master, and a few that surround her- , besides who has a spiritual effulgence. I think my own mother is the only one I have been impressed with at times. I think because people underestimate spirituality. Once I heard, a guy- called Purple- say he needed to start meditating. He was speaking about auras, and all this shit. As if, he knew anything. And then he says that. It made me want to burst in laughter. Honestly, how can anyone talk about spritual subjects like auras, vibrations, and the rest without having meditated a day? I am not a humble person, nor do I claim it. I do not need to be. I found spirituality, with the greatest master to walk this earth. I played in that divine relationship not only from a tender age, but earnestly sought spiritual answers in the depths of my meditation. The truths , that revealed themselves , who can I speak with, for few have ever touched the core of their heart? Do tears , unknown from any emotion, release, when deeply merged in god? if not, then there is nothing I have to say to anyone. Eternal truths, are there, but without a proper guide , you cannot take up the journey to yourself. I had a friend who recently visited the Ashram I have known for nearly 20 years, associated with my Master. I was very happy for him. It is because, to even step foot through that holy place, requires lifetimes of purity. That was why, I felt very angelic on his behalf. I have known many people from the outside world, and even devotees, but a lot of them do not have what it takes. It may seem arrogant, but I have heard from my own Master's lips my own spiritual progress, so I need not make small qualms. To even feel her vibrations, even see a picture is grace. We call it grace. Whatever else it is called by synchonization, effort, will.. in the end it is Her grace, that brings you there. Constantly in my house, my mother plays so much devotional music. It was like that from when I was like five. How can I compare them to any of the other mothers in the world?. Man lives in his own desire. I have found the real stone of spirituality, and the pillars that climb from my family, their heights I am amazed by. I have always longed for conversation in deep spirtuality, but how rare is the worthy friend. That is why the path to god, is a lonely one. Only the inner Master ( from the outer Guide) , shows you the way. Its nice to be here. I in fact, do not like Los Angeles compared to the pure vibrations in my home. They are from my mother mostly. My father, is well, just an average person. thats all. but spirtually, i have derived much from my own mother. When I think of the years passed, and the growth within I have had. Where are the friends , that I can share my divine aspirations with? I have kept so closed myself for so long, I feel I can no longer connect to anyone.

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