new day.

gotten used to the warm weather here now. its sunny with undertones of cold winds.
Had tried some herbals yesterday, think I may call a delivery. Man, I called one time this guy- he had such good stuff. He had a half smoked blunt in the big white tinted truck he drove, and so i pulled on it- was some blueberry or something, very good .

its a lot colder here. cant stand that. the air is cleaner. but inside its cold. i am always amazed by the simplicity when i come here. its like i forgot everything I left behind in LA. and the simple quiet, is where I belong. Gonna check some pals later tonight, and maybe another tomorrow who lives in San Rafael.

Music is great. But there is a more subtle sound even deeper than that. In scripture it is referred to as the soundless sound. This is in reference to meditation. When meditation arises, the mind will have experiences unlike before. Typically this can take a lifetime of practice but the right guide can quicken the journey.

The floaters in my eyes are increasing. This gets troubling at times. Worried about my sight.

Nothing to smoke.

Going to finish Soul Eater. Finished epsiode 47 on Friday.

i am at home now. Until tuesday. got here last night- thursday night. Had some rain , so the flight was delayed. Quite a few young girls on the flight. A white girl from portland with this white guy in a suit caught my eye . her eye caught mine. But anyways. its nice to be here. the spiritual vibrations are strong. mostly due to my mother. The strength of years of spritual practice, the development of a divine relationship , who can I explain any of these to? I have never met anyone, besides my master, and a few that surround her- , besides who has a spiritual effulgence. I think my own mother is the only one I have been impressed with at times. I think because people underestimate spirituality. Once I heard, a guy- called Purple- say he needed to start meditating. He was speaking about auras, and all this shit. As if, he knew anything. And then he says that. It made me want to burst in laughter. Honestly, how can anyone talk about spritual subjects like auras, vibrations, and the rest without having meditated a day? I am not a humble person, nor do I claim it. I do not need to be. I found spirituality, with the greatest master to walk this earth. I played in that divine relationship not only from a tender age, but earnestly sought spiritual answers in the depths of my meditation. The truths , that revealed themselves , who can I speak with, for few have ever touched the core of their heart? Do tears , unknown from any emotion, release, when deeply merged in god? if not, then there is nothing I have to say to anyone. Eternal truths, are there, but without a proper guide , you cannot take up the journey to yourself. I had a friend who recently visited the Ashram I have known for nearly 20 years, associated with my Master. I was very happy for him. It is because, to even step foot through that holy place, requires lifetimes of purity. That was why, I felt very angelic on his behalf. I have known many people from the outside world, and even devotees, but a lot of them do not have what it takes. It may seem arrogant, but I have heard from my own Master's lips my own spiritual progress, so I need not make small qualms. To even feel her vibrations, even see a picture is grace. We call it grace. Whatever else it is called by synchonization, effort, will.. in the end it is Her grace, that brings you there. Constantly in my house, my mother plays so much devotional music. It was like that from when I was like five. How can I compare them to any of the other mothers in the world?. Man lives in his own desire. I have found the real stone of spirituality, and the pillars that climb from my family, their heights I am amazed by. I have always longed for conversation in deep spirtuality, but how rare is the worthy friend. That is why the path to god, is a lonely one. Only the inner Master ( from the outer Guide) , shows you the way. Its nice to be here. I in fact, do not like Los Angeles compared to the pure vibrations in my home. They are from my mother mostly. My father, is well, just an average person. thats all. but spirtually, i have derived much from my own mother. When I think of the years passed, and the growth within I have had. Where are the friends , that I can share my divine aspirations with? I have kept so closed myself for so long, I feel I can no longer connect to anyone.

health care
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subtropical monsoon climate characterized by four seasons: rainfall, sunshine, mild weather.

My plans and goals (note to myself)

TCM
Traditional Chinese Medicine College of San Francisco Length Approx.: MS. - # 3 Years
Offers Masters & Doctorate programs in TCM. & Ceritification In Shiatsu,etc.
Palmer College Length : Approx. O.D # 3 1/2 years
Chiropractic
Doctor of Chirporactic

I think after I go to NY for that culinary organic program 4 months I will come back and enroll in one of these programs or maybe both on a part time basis. The Chiropractic school is where dr.happy went to I think , way back. He seems to be , well, have done okay. Anyways, I am more interested in the TCM, and I think if I put all these together I can have a very sound entrepreneurial idea featuring holistic healing, and natural foods. And the elements of my own homes cooking, will also be signifcant to the unique niche I will have. I mean, my mothers cooking infused with also my own modern blend style. And the plus, I will be able to stay in California- Northern, for the most part. I don't like southern california personally, and the dry heat and dust have gotten to my skin. The rolling hills, and cleaner air, along the Pacific Northwest is some of the most spectacular parts of the Americas I believe. In fact the American contients are filled with much land, and air. Its too bad to live in these congested cities. Hopefully these programs will allow me to express my own spiritual energy into the healing process. I could never have done a traditional degree anyways. My road is too windy.

Just received Tattoo In Japan.
synopsis:
An excellent book with beautiful illustrations . Includes popular styles of Japan (western influenced) & traditional irezumi by tebori artists. Very thick, good photographs
Okay Now my problems with it: I mean, yes the japanese journalist who composed the book did a nice job. But she did not have the right sensitivity in my opinion. Where is Horitoshi of Tokyo, Ikekuburo ? And his deshi's? Only Horitoku San Is here. Which is very good, his art is stunning. to say the least. I have never seen pieces like some. I am glad that Horiyoshi III is not featured in too detail. Frankly, he does too much by machine, to be considered traditional Japanese. he is a great master, sure, and his lineage, but much of his art has become influenced by western traditions, that I do not find appealing.

I really would like to find the opportunity to learn this art. But I will wait. Patience, is that which gives time allowance to flower on her veins, course through the earth into my skin. Learning Japanese is essential. That will take approximately two years. But with that, I am confident, and some other classes in culture, etc. that I will be able to learn the art at least to some degree from a teacher. And during the mean time, I am going to experiment on myself , create some needles. There is an ancient Indian text on some things, which will be helpful; inside my head I got it . I doubt anyone reads this, so I will be posting some pictures later on in the year- say November 09, to see how my work goes. I sketched some simple japanese beasts. I will need to get some Kuniyoshi prints. I got this too tiny book. Piece of shit, is too small to look and copy. anyways , I will have to research what kind of needle I need. I will just stick with black ink. Try to see how sumi is traditionally made. and I ll just do all black, different gradations. thats it for now.. time to get back to real stuff.