God is the Samashti, and this visible universe is God
differentiated and made manifest. If we love this sum total,
we love everything. Loving the world and doing it good will
all come easily then; we have to obtain this power only by
loving God first; otherwise it is no joke to do good to the
world.

Vivekanda [Bhakti Yoga]

Q: Then, why was I unhappy all my life?
M: Because you did not go down to the very roots of your being. It is your complete ignorance of yourself, that covered up your love and happiness and made you seek for what you had never lost. Love is will, the will to share your happiness with all. Being happy -- making happy -- this is the rhythm of love.

Q: I understood that suffering is inherent in limitation.
M: Differences and distinctions are not the causes of sorrow. Unity in diversity is natural and good. It is only with separateness and self-seeking that real suffering appears in the world.




Under the right teacher the disciple learns to learn, not to remember and obey. Satsang, the company of the noble, does not mould, it liberates.




Q: Is not life by its very nature repetitive? Will not following life lead to stagnation?
M: By itself life is immensely creative. A seed, in course of time, becomes a forest. The mind is like a forester -- protecting and regulating the immense vital urge of existence.


Q: Is brahmacharya, continence, imperative in Yoga?
M: A life of constraint and suppression is not Yoga. Mind must be free of desires and relaxed. It comes with understanding, not with determination, which is but another form of memory. An understanding mind is free of desires and fears.

It is not on the verbal level that one becomes a disciple, but in the silent depths of one’s being.


We grow through investigation, and to investigate we need experience. We tend to repeat what we have not understood. If we are sensitive and intelligent, we need not suffer. Pain is a call for attention and the penalty of carelessness. Intelligent and compassionate action is the only remedy.




Q: Why do we seek worldly happiness, even after having tasted one’s own natural spontaneous happiness?
M: When the mind is engaged in serving the body, happiness is lost. To regain it, it seeks pleasure. The urge to be happy is right, but the means of securing it are misleading, unreliable and
destructive of true happiness.

I AM THAT


Q: Has devotion (bhakti) any place in your teaching?

M: When you are not well, you go to a physician who tells you what is wrong and what is the remedy. If you have confidence in him, it makes things simple: you take the medicine, follow the diet restrictions and get well. But if you do not trust him, you may still take a chance, or you may study medicine yourself! In all cases it is your desire for recovery that moves you, not the physician.
Without trust there is no peace. Somebody or other you always trust -- it may be your mother, or your wife. Of all the people the knower of the self, the liberated man, is the most trust-worthy. But merely to trust is not enough. You must also desire. Without desire for freedom of what use is the confidence that you can acquire freedom? Desire and confidence must go together. The stronger your desire, the easier comes the help. The greatest Guru is helpless as long as the disciple is not eager to learn. Eagerness and earnestness are all-important. Confidence will come with experience. Be devoted to your goal -- and devotion to him who can guide you will follow. If your desire and
confidence are strong, they will operate and take you to your goal, for you will not cause delay by hesitation and compromise.
The greatest Guru is your inner self. Truly, he is the supreme teacher. He alone can take you to your goal and he alone meets you at the end of the road. Confide in him and you need no outer Guru. But again you must have the strong desire to find him and do nothing that will create obstacles and delays. And do not waste energy and time on regrets. Learn from your mistakes and do not repeat them.

In Michigan I spoke to Amma about twice

Amma had said whre is durvasu with the peanuts to geeta one day
as Amma told me to bring it the next day
I finally brought it for Devi Bhava, Amma ate from her hand a lot of it
while talking about that book to some devotee through Radhika.

I told Amma I am born alone, live alone and die alone, but the viraha will kill me.
Amma said i-yo-h and gave me two chocolates and an apple

Later I told Amma again about the doctor and I had yelled at him.
Amma said be careful, you are a kalian.
And then told me doctors cant be told like that, he has to decide- like its his ego to do so,
you have to describe the symptoms that lead to that conclusion.

Amma told me to wear a neck brace for a month. I think while sleeping too and see if that works.

Then I told Amma I am leaving. It was very hard to leave.

Experiences of San Ramon Devi Bhava




First
I went up to Amma
with the peanuts
Amma said she is not going to eat them until later
and said Madhu had brought earlier

and then began talking about gayatri.gales
and her nonsense, she is and always was mentally distrubed

ammas room is 10 X 7 with the two patis
laksmi aka has been ammas attendant for 27 years

said that gale writing is like a pornography
dont read it keep it out of your mind

amma said even ramana maharshi and satya sai baba had devotees tried to kill them

amma said people tried to bring poison with food (3 women - 15 years devotees- madhu would later say this from amma-- and that amma told them all that she did for them )

anyways i told amma in the olden time we cut off their  head and make a mala to amma
and if a mother is insulted the children will never standy by, i got very emotional
and amma was laughing while darshan to other people sort of

i said we should cut their heads. and amma said that is not the way basically.

then amma spoke at length about this gales

how she insulted Suggudnana acchan
about his something.

i said one strand of hair and She - Amma can make a crore of vira bhadras.

amma simply smiled and kept talking about the gale and her shit.
how amma had anu had them write sort of.

amma told me dont read it
and dont keep it in your mind

so then later madhu went to see amma told about the dog
amma told him all mahtamas of the past- ramamna maharshi had such love for animals, they came of their own sake and in amritapuri the two dogs are ammas so they can stay even then there was some trouble amma told me had to pay 1 million rupees cause tumbin bit somebody ; these people harasss the tail and stuff.



amma told madhu people here dont know
also amma said my dog is pavam
apparently asha checi tried to say its not a puppy its this big
and madhu said its only 11 months
and amma told asha chechi are you listening through ur ear and seeing?


anyways so amma called me durvasa, and said oh i made him wait after making the peanuts.
and so she called me has i was sitting by the bhajan group.

and then Amma said get the peanuts
so i squeezed back there but didnt see it
amma said durvasa or something.

and then amma siad choke radhikas neck you better get it
then amma got upset at me and said i told you to keep it didnt i

then i said amma i can make another batch

madhu said he will go find it from sudha

so amma said then go get me a paripap vada and i ll eat it from you
and gita looked into my face

so i was about to and madhu came with the peanuts

and amma told me to get a spoon
but slyly and assuredly said oh we have one back here

and then i got to feed ammas mouth the peanuts in a spoon.
Radhika said take out the cumba (the stalks) and Amma looked at her with eyes - she had disturbed the moment i guess sort of- anyways so i gave it
and madhu said ok amma we will go
and amma told me to sit back there

and i did
dayamrita swami asked me to move. apparently his knee is not good
but then amma told me to sit again and i sat like a child on top of the wooden box.


and then i came around

and we talked  about  the dog

amma said they have rules here

and then everyone will bring their pet and there wont be space

and said but amma likes dogs
they are only creature to love niskama


i told amma about boss too


amma gave prasad

then i also said during darshan about - something - mahadeva- the right margam
and Amma loudly yelled in my ear you are my son dont worry- like it will be fine - in  a roaring tone as if i was far away

it was an incredible devi bhava

Amma told madhu oh i made him wait after making those peanuts all out there
and said look there is the durvasa sitting
and Amma told madhu to call me
amma pointed and then madhu did
i was dozing off kind of


then i almost moved my hand over this guy
and Amma said oh his leg is bad and he is still doing seva
and then i said oh and patted him




ah what amma said when she told me to sit back there
was you sit and laugh in moments  and feed me