Wednesday, December 9, 2009

Degree ideas:
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Boston University [ MET College of continuing adult education ] //admissions easier
MS CIS - 1 Year /(online program too) // good program, solid job opportunities
MS Administration Studies/Financial Economics /12 classes
MLA Gastronomy // money making?
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Tufts
MS Nutrtional Economic Policy /not likely to get in
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Boston Architectural College
MLA. Landscape Architecture / long program, but gives work experience/economy?
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Spain (Slow food Movement) //non-profit
MLA Italian Gastronomy / 1 YR + US fin aid available - no app fee
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CPA
Foothill College Classes: Accounting / study, study. & Study, cheap & ok
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Other options:
Western Governors University MS Information Security / Cheap, Online, Accredited ( HP, Microsoft, etc. )
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University of Colorado Denver
MS Finance/MA Economics
M.Engineering GIS
M. Information Systems
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Tuesday, November 24, 2009

A student said it best ( when it was concerning rising costs of education)

I see countries as big corporations — if you’re not satisfied with their product, switch to a different provider. I find that to be true free market capitalism.

Monday, November 23, 2009

"'It may be that there is no solution or it may be that I'm not clever enough to find it. Ramakrishna looked upon the world as the sport of God. "It is like a game," he said. "In this game there are joy and sorrow, virtue and vice, knowledge and ignorance, good and evil., The game cannot continue if sin and suffering are altogether eliminated from the creation." I would reject that with all my strength. The best I can suggest is that when the Absolute manifested itself in the world evil was the natural correlation of good. You could never have had the stupendous beauty of the Himalayas without the unimaginable horror of a convulsion of the earth's crust. The Chinese craftsman who makes a vase in what they call eggshell porcelain can give it a lovely shape, ornament it with a beautiful design, stain it a ravishing colour, and give it a perfect glaze, but from its very nature he can't make it anything but fragile. If you drop it on the floor it will break into a dozen fragments. Isn't it possible in the same way that the values we cherish in the world can only exist in combination with evil?"
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The similies used here are good. I would not agree with this person who rejects Ramakrishna Paramahamsa, but the description is interesting. Only an idiot, would go against the grain of a god-man. Actually, this person inherits the position by the former (the great Yogi) has his intellectual and theoretical base before giving his so called 'rejected' opinion, which is nothing more than a further digress of the same basis with a little cantankering in the elements. Western philosophy is mostly an abridged version of Greek development, and that itself flowed from the Arabs, who came in contact with the Indian peninsula.
"Take a piece of glass, paint colours and forms on it, and put into a magic lantern, turn on a white light, and the colours and forms painted on the glass are reproduced on the screen. If that light were not turned on, you would not see the colours of the slide on the screen.

"So is it with an ordinary man. His mind is like the screen. On it shines the light, dulled and changed because he has allowed the many-sided world to stand in the way of the Light (God). He sees only the effects of Light (God) instead of the Light (God), and his mind reflects the effects he sees just as the screen reflects the colours on the glass. Take away the prism and the colours vanish, absorbed back into the white light from whence they came. Take away the colours from the slide and the light shines clearly through. Take away our sight the world of effects we see, and let us look only into the causes, and we shall see the Light (God)."

"When a fish swims, it swims on and on, and there is no end to the water. When a bird flies, it flies on and on, and there is no end to the sky. There was never a fish that swam out of the water or a bird that flew out of the sky. When they need just a little water or sky, they use just a little; when they need a lot, they use a lot. Thus, they use all of it in every moment, and in every place they have perfect freedom.

Yet if there were a bird that first wanted to examine the size of the sky, or a fish that first wanted to examine the extent of the water, and then tried to fly or swim, it would never find its way. When we find where we are at this moment, then practice follows, and this is the realization of the truth. For the place, the way, is neither large nor small, neither self nor other. It has never existed before, and it is not coming into existence now. It simply is as it is."

Thursday, November 19, 2009

Kuriyani kaniru panniruga
talli ni pada padmamula
saranupondi

may my tears flow as perfumed water, finding refuge at your lotus feet
"The true person is
Not anyone in particular;
But like the deep blue color
Of the limitless sky,
It is everyone,
Everywhere in the world."

Dogen Zenji (1200-1253)

Saturday, November 14, 2009

"History is very much tangible. It isn't about who shot who during some Franco-Prussia War . Its what happened two minutes ago. "
Fuck you Jim Rogers for saying India won't last the next 30 or 40 years.


"[My educators] did not pretend to believe that everyone is educable, for they knew, on the contrary, that very few are educable, very few indeed. They saw this as a fact of nature, like the fact that few are six feet tall. [...] They accepted the fact that there are practicable ranges of intellectual and spiritual experience which nature has opened to some and closed to others."
Alfred Nock. (sentiments, which I share- in some slight regard of affinity to)
"If we are to survive, we must have ideas, vision, and courage. These things are rarely produced by committees. Everything that matters in our intellectual and moral life begins with an individual confronting his own mind and conscience in a room by himself." -

Arthur M. Schlesinger, Jr. ( Historian)



Friday, November 13, 2009


"The brevity of life, the failing of the senses, the numbness of indifference and unprofitable occupations allow us to know very little. And again and again swift oblivion, the thief of knowledge and the enemy of memory, makes a void of the mind, in the course of time, even what we learn we lose."


Thursday, November 12, 2009

Before facebook, what did we all do?
- Just wonder about other people. I guess.

What if my dreams are but short of reality? What if the pursuit of peace inside, is wasted by the inertia on the outer. Sinking into the heating one-ness of despair, how dark is that sorrow with which tainted i see the glass.

Do I brush off my time here, as a moth to the cinders flame?

I am calling out, oh Self of my heart,

such kindling loneliness.

Sunday, November 8, 2009

Lucy Fischer

Adventures in the Skin Trade

" Only in Japan is tattooing an art; that is, only here has the craft of pigmentation become so skilled that it becomes an act of creation; and only here does this have the artistic dimensions of a long consecutive history ..."

How Investments and sketchy companies fucked us over

A response to Goldman Sach's article in the Time's online today
-Catch the full article here: http://READ.im/cfU

Michael Skorupski wrote:
Never mentioned was GS’s role, forcefully lobbied by Robert Rubin and Lawrence Summers of the Clinton administration, in the repealing of the Glass-Steagall act in 1999, enacted during the Great Depression to limit the financial power of ‘too-big-to-fail’ institutions by separating investment banks from commercial banks. As a result of their efforts, GS thus became ‘too-big-to-fail’, encouraging moral hazard and leveraging ever more risky investments, knowing that they would always be bailed out by the US taxpayer should their investments go sour. Nor was mentioned the curbing of predatory lending practices that had been on the agenda of most US state legislatures, only to be vetoed by Bush, acquiescing to GS lobbying – not difficult as Bush’s then Treasury Secretary Paulson was also an ex-GS CEO. The latter led to the sub-prime mess, and the former to the toxic waste of mortgage-backed securities. It is unbelievable that your writer had nothing to say about GS lobbying Congress and government, spending hundreds of millions in bribe money, which led us directly into the present economic crisis - getting worse by the month.
GS is making its nth fortune by engineering a massive transfer of wealth from the US and UK to China and emerging markets – borrowing at negative interest rates in the US and UK, and then investing in production and commodities in China and emerging markets. That’s where the bailout cash is flowing to, as that’s where are found the greatest returns. This money will never come back. The recipients can thank the US and UK taxpayer for being history’s greatest mugs. Future generations will look back and ask themselves what drugs were present generations on to allow government and the likes of GS, earning exorbitant commissions, to get away with such astronomical looting?

Saturday, October 31, 2009

Eric Wilson's closing statements in his book Against Happiness:
"Given these virtues of melancholia, why are thousands of psychiatrists and psychologists attempting to "cure" depression as if it were a terrible disease? Obviously, those suffering severe depression, suicidal and bordering on psychosis, require serious medications. But what of those millions of people who possess mild to moderate depression? Should these potential visionaries also be asked to eradicate their melancholia with the help of a pill? Should these possible innovators relinquish what might well be their greatest muse, their demons giving birth to angels?...To be against happiness, to avert contentment, is to be close to joy, to embrace ecstasy. Incompleteness is the call to life. Fragmentation is freedom."
"There is an invincible taste for prostitution in the heart of man, from which comes his horror of solitude. He wants to be 'two'. The man of genius wants to be 'one'... It is this horror of solitude, the need to lose oneself in the external flesh, that man nobly calls 'the need to love'."


Can you guess the author? Most likely not. One of my favorite french writers, and probably 1 of 3 famous ones , ever.
Poetry is, in short, the universal art of the mind, which has become essentially free, and which is not fettered in its realization to an externally sensuous material, but which is creatively active in the space and time belonging to the inner worlds of ideas and emotion. - Hegel

Friday, October 30, 2009

sometimes i feel a great swell rise up in me, and something beautiful wants expression, but it just wont come out. like something so ancient, so precious , tells me

Thursday, October 29, 2009

I visited all quarters with my mind
Nor found I any dearer than myself;
Self is likewise to every other dear;
Who loves himself may never harm another..
I should post the many , many gajiin blogs I have scoured over the net- of foreigners in Japan. I only can think of one other person who may have the same fascination, albeit different reasons. It really would be great actually, to submerge... ill digress later. Right now I have more important matters to attend to, like- where are all the clears !? Have to re-visit Pop-Killa.
I have been reading a lot of blogs. I believe, I read a prolific amount in one day. Maybe about six to seven hours I spend reading. Blogs, Economics, Hedging Instruments (not musical- for the financial markets), philosophy, some short stories, poetry ( which is inundated, as it is) , newspapers, stories, arts, crafts, cooking, organic living, programs to make a future of myself in, and onwards. Lately, I have been reading a lot of blogs about peoples experiences in Nippon. I would like myself to travel there, but I will wait sometime. The financial responsibility of any endeavor bearing such magnitude requires a fortitude of thought and well, a long time to plan it out because it's my ass on the line. Apparently, teaching english is the best way to get your foot it the door. Only thing is that they pay around 25k$ a year. For someone like me, with a mathematics background, I'd be taking one hell of a potential pay cut. But I've heard stories of people with computers and engineering degrees switching to their appropriate fields after living for sometime there, and being on the job hunt ...But it will be sometime, I plan to enjoy the Californian sun for days to come. Business opportunity is here, and the pursuit of higher education. It's nice to go live in a foreign land, but the perception i get is- you wont make it big. I mean, if your some musician like Jero, well yeah. Wait and see.

Wednesday, October 28, 2009

what doesn't make you want to travel to Nippon

Jero:: A black biracial Japanese Enka Singer. ...


After returning from LA, I have to say Ebisu's mackerel was less fresh than last time and more disappointing. We also tried Botega Louie, an italian slice off LA, which in all opinion make mediocre pizza. I'll have to add my critique on Yelp. I never tried their ganache Cookies which other blogger's raved about or review-ers , can't recall. It's the economy. uh-huh. Got a sleeve outline done this time. Have to save up for January. This is a costly business. Was looking over the tattoo Yuji gave me sometime last year and the picture on facebook- which I detagged. I've decided against any photos of my body showing art-work on there. For now, I'm not sure if that's a good channel. But, back to the tattoo- the colors have faded from the few days after- . The experience at the shop this time was very memorable. I have to say the trip there always lightens spirits. The kirin is done, it will need a touch up of white and stuff, but at least its looking okay. I have a severe reaction to Red, though not uncommon- I feel like I will want to opt out this color if I can in future work to save my skin breathing space.
Recently Microsoft in an advertising and marketing ploy in cohorts with Burger King, released a Windows 7 Whopper with 7 patties. Beef is expensive in Japan, and these are being sold at 777 yen or 9$ a burger; needless to say a good deal . But its only for the first 30 customers. I wanted to post a comment left on CNN - for the spokeswoman who ate one of these burgers ( and helped boost CNN spotlight as well & the burger ! ). Her sentiments echo the very concerns myself and surely others must have felt.
--- left by Nina Medeiros
I find it alarming that this broadcast casually encourages the consumption of more than 2000 calories in a single meal when close to one out of every three people in The United States is overweight or obese. As a nation we continue to glamorize both excess and consumption with little acknowledgment of the cost. With upwards of $147 billion dollars spent on obesity-related health care just last year, we are starting to hear more truth about food, but until the media changes its attitude we will be a long way from truly beginning the fight against obesity. Obesity is a deadly disease. It is robbing people all over the country of living healthy and productive lives. Shame on Microsoft for collaborating with Burger King to dream up this excess. It seems they will stop at nothing to compete for dollar bills. What a shame that one of the most powerful media organizations in the world has chosen to reward them for it.

Wednesday, September 23, 2009

A Growing Pain inside,
lingers, festering over.
sadness is eating inside, drenching as water , seeping into thoughts.

Sunday, August 30, 2009

Landscape
- Federico LOrca

By Mistake the evening had dressed in cold.

Through the mist on the panes
all the children
watch a yellow tree
change into birds.

Evening is stretched out
all down the river.
And the flush of an apple
shivers over tile roofs.

Saturday, August 29, 2009

Revelations like (dogs) mad men howl around me, telling me their secrets, there are too many names to remember[ in this pack. ]

Friday, August 7, 2009

We also visited Hurricane Ridge. And oh yeah, the dog came with us. She is not allowed on trails. It was a pain really. Next time I'd like a few more adventurous campers, with us, so at least I can go on the trails. Keeping slim and fit, with a huge diet of fish, eggs, greens. I have grown even stricter with my diet. I asked for blow fish at this Japanese Sushi Restaurant, but they said it was out of season; winter is the best time, and she brought me Snapper which is popular in the Summer. But no one beats my mackerel sashimi from Ebisu. Period.
During the last weekend we sped off to the Olympic National Rain-forest. It is the only such rainforest in the country. Situated in Washington. We camped for one night near Sol Duc. There are some natural springs on a hike nearby, but my companions did not want to make the trek at night. Although I was more than eager to run by chance into a cougar or bear. There are not common sightings, but people do see them once in a while. The campground was nice, there are about 70 spots or so, and they get quickly filled during the summer seasons because of the temperate weather. I had some Black Butte Oregon beer. It was great in the open, wilderness. Washington has many scenic beauties within a very close range. It used to be mostly wilderness itself, and Bear Country is not too far off. Compared to California, I would have to say, all we have are idealic grounds for food. Here blackberries grow wild, in front of nearly all homes ,or at least down the corridors of highway, and people can be seen pickng them. That was my very first time camping, starting a fire, and even putting up a tent. We had three kids, around 19, 20 , and 21 years old, who were adjacent to us. I mingled with them, and we showed each other our tattoos and took in a few stories. They had a beer called Session black , which was good. And the caps have either Rock, Paper or Scissors. Was Fun. I think their names were Chris, Megan, and Dan. People out here are very friendly actually, mostly white; but very liberal I believe. A lot of people have tattoos. Either simple ones, like one-spot, or more elaborate. Very Cool. Heading Back to Los Angeles to finish up this last semester is a dread. That city has given me nothing but trouble, and I sincerely regret ever deciding to go there to study over three years ago.

Thursday, July 23, 2009

Monday, July 13, 2009

I have been thinking...

I have been thinking of the difference between water
and the waves on it. Rising,
water's still water, falling back,
it is water, will you give me a hint
how to tell them apart?

Because someone has made up the word
"wave," do I have to distinguish it from water?

There is a Secret One inside us;
the planets in all the galaxies
pass through his hands like beads.

That is a string of beads one should look at with luminous eyes.
Do not go to the garden of flowers!
O friend! go not there;
In your body is the garden of flowers.
Take your seat on the thousand petals of the
lotus, and there gaze on the infinite beauty.
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Hang up the swing of love today!
Hang the body and the mind between the
arms of the beloved, in the ecstasy of love's joy:
Bring the tearful streams of the rainy clouds
to your eyes, and cover your heart with
the shadow of darkness:
Bring your face nearer to his ear, and speak
of the deepest longings of your heart.
Kabir says: `Listen to me brother! bring the
vision of the Beloved in your heart.'



Sunday, July 12, 2009

Just as there is great darkness, that lurks in the corridor of street lamps, dimly lit- within the fragile heart , so does tremendous light shine on the other side of the earth, in the corners . While reading Confessions of An Economic Hit man I am reminded as in many of the economic courses I have taken, that much of economics is hotly debated, and with the statistics of mathematics employed, much of data about economic progress and the wonders of capitalistic functions (e.g. modernization to the masses) in developing countries are falsely marginalized gains. We teach that economic theories on supply and demand, and new technologies, and roads, and nuclear plants, and dams, and oil refineries popping up like starbucks in poor countries across the globe, ridden with debt from agencies like the World Bank & IMF, by principal powers like the United States, and its European counterparts, that the freedom of information, that markets with no restrictions, are the future. But, just as darkness is illuminated, so karma is a complicated concept. No machine can detect the hate in ones heart. Ignoring the grave consequences to the delicate balance of species, the indigenous populations, cases such as that of Java, Somalia, Iran, Ecuador, Nicaragua, Mexico and the many more across the globe. The happenings of Japan after 1951, after the Chinese liberation from American influence in the 1950s, the failure of backing against the Communist Contras in Nicaragua, the failure in Venezuela after Hugo Chavez was elected; like the darkness the spells out from man, so does a thunderous light exist inside. The ancient truths are not obsolete in the world, but the sorrow of man is engulfed in vibrations even in the rain clouds. Man is not a single entity, but a link of chains. Though he does not see it, karma is ingrained into nature. Like the Chandgoya Upanishad says; rebirth is a very hazy and complicated mess (to paraphrase). But make no doubt, man is not just a single entity, the spark within is not just hocus pocus, or made to make Christians, Jews, and Muslims feel better about their living life. You are a single mortal frame, that walks under tremors. The fragility of life is forgotten in the pursuit. I remember reading about a farmer who wrote without editing, with confusing sentences, and raw grammar(meaning incorrectly put together predicates and what not), who according to even Truman Capote- was a farmer at heart- well, he won the Nobel Prize in literature in early 1960s. ...

[to be continued]...

Wednesday, July 8, 2009

Marx writes in Das Kapital: “These objects, gold and silver, just as they come out of the bowels of the earth, are forthwith the direct incarnation
of all human labor. Hence the magic of money.”

“Hence,” Marx continues, “the riddle presented by money is but the riddle presented by commodities; only it now strikes us in its most glaring
form.”
---- Toppamono Ch 2.
We tried to boil the apricot seeds; for that rare B-17 Vitamin. Didn't work. Had some green cheera from the garden, and a single green pepper thats bloomed (is that the right word?). It was good. Nice, without the chemicals and pesticides of grocery crops. Blah.

Tuesday, July 7, 2009

Monday, July 6, 2009

Was remembering something about this Narayana Bramachari - with his long hair.

Watched all of season 5 of Entourage. The premise for the show is pretty clever. It's extremely clever. The show is okay, its light, somewhat humorous, nothing too lame at least in the acting. I mean its not really a work of anything. Like the first season of Dexter, or even that other show- Six Feet Under- that was a very epic piece of work. This is more like fun, I assume. Like the Gossip Girl for men, but without the heavy over-acting. I honestly do not think anyone in this show can act, but I think that's also the charm and point. Mark Wahlberg did a phenomenal job; where he could not do movies well, he got the TV genre for today's generation on the dot.

The man was physically fit at one point too, might I add. I think the main character is very 2-D. He really can't act that well, but the supporting group especially the small red headed fella, they all add to the characters. This is really not a work of something that produces stimuli, like Sopranos. But it's light nature is probably what makes it appealing and a success. With the addition of several cameo's and celebrity highlights, and the plethora of pretty women , without excess footage is a well established TV show. It first ran season 1 in 2005. That is a strong show, to be starting Season 6, next Sunday, July 12th, 2009. It is a very unrealistic show; that probably complements to its color. At one point the character who plays Johnny Drama, Kevin Dillon even says that most men, or 99% wont get to date a super-model. The funny part about all of this is that most of these guys are no name actors, with small serials, even if that to their credit. That is probably what gives the show a more realistic effect. Either way, it was like reading Calvin & Hobbes, a fun light read or watch, nothing too deep to ponder over. Although the former can be very elevating.

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On another note, I had some really surreal dreams in the past weeks. I had a dream about the use of commas I think, the other day. And a giant snake on the beach. Dreaming is supposed to be an indicator of lack of really deep sleep. In deep sleep you don't dream. Although dream books and the authors who of the modern era pitch all that shit about dream interpretation, I like the neo-classical texts on it. Most of which are not really available to the layman.

Sunday, July 5, 2009















I'm not sure if I posted this earlier, but its about John Mayer's sleeve. He has some nice artwork done by Horimitsu of the Horitoshi Family. He is located in Tokyo. Irezumi , of a traditional nature in Japan is split up into dividing sections of Japan. No two families work in the same area. It's against tradition, and an encroaching tattoo artist can be seriously dealt with by the yakuza. At the same time, there are very few authentic tebori artists. I came across a black guy with a short sleeve done in a Mac Store by Redonodo Beach this year. However, this was not tebori. Most of the artwork in the United States is not tebori. To the untrained eye, it is very difficult to tell the color apart. I'm not sure why they do not mention that his artists is Horimitsu. Apparently, he took a little Japanese. I'm not sure how he was introduced into their family to get tattooed. Yes, Being a Celebrity is great and all, but this is not some place you just walk into. But the artwork is nice, its a mix of machine and tebori. In the blue peonies you can notice the pretty nature of the blue, and a sharp eye can note the difference in color from a machine. But some of that black is heavy machine shading, I believe. The color's are nice. He didn't really follow a traditional Japanese path and do symmetrical sleeves. Which I guess, as a celebrity and someone who must have paid any amount to get it done, they do not care. By this I mean, his other arm has small tattoo's and stuff. But I guess my arms do too. Well, not for long. I plan to get the entire traditional suit; that's why we set up the artwork the way we did on my leg. I like the idea of covering up your artwork in public; although I find it tediously enforced in Japan, I think here they kind of show off too much. It's also better for the art, to be kept away from the Sun. The literature on the symbolic meaning of artwork- like characters from Suikoden have many spiritual allegorical references. Being of a Hindu background helps greatly. Many of the gods in Japanese literature, are borrowed from the Hindu pantheon; as much of East Asian religion stems from India. These artists recognize this too. But it has a beauty of its own appeal, transfixed by many centuries and years of tradition in their own spirit.





The fellow in the back with the brown long sleeve and slightly auburn hair is the artist who did my work, Horitaka. His sensei or master is in the green jacket , Horitoshi. The white guy sitting next to him on the right produced a film- which is terrible might I add, his name was Mario Barth. Apparently he is a tattoo celebrity millionare or some shit. To be honest, well I wont say it. He's german apparently, well thats his white ancenstory. He seems pretty American or western I suppose. I didn't like his documentary. The guy, I don't know why white people... Enough said- I forgot what his video was called, but I would not buy it. I showed it to people who had no interest or idea about tattooing of an ancient culture and even they were not impressed by this sloth. Poorly scripted, and it really did not give a deep insight into the artwork. Not impressed. As a frequent indie film and foreign film, as well documentary eager viewer- I found his work to be mainly focused on how great he is. Here he was in a foreign country, proclaiming himself, even before giving more insight to these artists who have kept alive a long tradition of tattooing that is the culmination of body art. Something you will notice is that everyone else has sleeves covering their body, except Mario. This is such a western thing, to show off. I'm not sure about the other white guys in the picture, but the other Japanese men all have full blown body suits, but they are covered up. Only Mario is showing off his arms. This proves my point on many levels. I regret having done other artwork prior, but I plan to just cover it up eventually. Artwork , whether it is poetry, writing, speech, painting, music, should be expressed at the highest level, or at least be humble if not. Eastern culture has a different vibratory experience, thats why Indian, Chinese & Japanese cultures have lasted through the ages. But it is from India, that Godhood stems. In Asia, all religious ties and art can be traced back, if you have the proper educational rearing and spiritual insight.





-Eva-Carriere- was she real or magic?

Saturday, July 4, 2009

had an interesting dream.
I was carefully going over some of Horitoku's work. Very impressive shading. Like the work of a real master. It's hard to see or understand unless you have the eye for it. Very few people understand this work, they just throw around the words. I am hoping to travel to Japan to get some work done by end of next year. This year , my artist will return from Tokyo, and with his master for a tattoo convention later in fall. He promised to do additional work and finish up what he started. Tebori can be very costly. But tattoo also requires the ability to withold pain. It is hard to work on someone who is moving. I believe it is worth it. It is more attractive to me than taking a vacation. This artwork, especially for a foreigner like me- it is impossible to get done, of this quality and from such a famous low key and preserved artist family. I will scan in some of the work maybe to display it from the book I have. From San Francisco to Japan is not expensive. I have a friend in Kyoto. But all the costs of the work and then travel may add up. He asked me not to come there earlier, as he said he would be back. So I will wait. Planning on getting a full suit before the age of 30. After that the pain threshold increases. I am hoping to go to Japan though because his masters master may stop working soon. And to get work done by him is like...hmmm. well it is a big honor. Even the Japanese in Japan have very little understanding of this artwork. It goes back to the class distinctions. I still have some light reaction to the red which he had said was normal. One noticeable difference between machine and irezumi is that the latter kind of moves with the body, it has a very life-like feel. The ink used is purer. Sumi, is from Japan. It is not american tie-dye. But Yugi-San's work, is still very impressive , although I am going for all tebori from now on, and the same family.

Monday, June 29, 2009

i am going to become eternal.

Friday, June 26, 2009

I still remember the wind blowing and the dirt cycling off the roads , in a little yellow and black canary autorichsaw
can anyone do that call , that veeli- gridhari- like the big S himself?
Today I ate some spicy chilies. Yes it improved my health.

Wednesday, June 24, 2009


Milk does contain calcium... but they are also high in protein and diets that are high inprotein, especially animal protein, cause more calcium to be excreted. Meats also contain large quantities of phosphorus, which can impair calcium balance.

– Hegsted R B, Barden H S, Zemel M B, Linkswiller H M,
“Urinary calcium and calcium balance in young men as affected by level of protein and phosphorus intake,”
Journal of Nutrition, 111:553-62, 1981


The calcium in kale and other green vegetables is more efficiently absorbed than the calcium in milk.

– Robert p Heaney and Connie M Weaver, “Calcium Absorption from Kale,”
American Journal of Clinical Nutrition, 51:656-57, 1990

Popcorn pops because of its ability to hold in moisture; when you heat popcorn you create steam inside each kernel. When enough pressure builds up, the skin explodes and turns the endosperm inside out.
But Umeboshi is even better. As I read and research further, I grow in my respect for especially South American cultures & Chinese & Japanese, and less for my Indian Brethren. The latter seem to have forgotten much of their ancestral past, and can only make blind claims to some archaic period, which neither them or anyone they know of practice or have really heard of. Ayurveda for the most part is a dead science. Chinese Medicine has been safe guarded for 3000 years. Acupuncture is used side by side in China with Western Medicine, and the meridians are accurate time-table points of telling symptoms. Ask a cancer patient, who has undergone acupuncture after chemo-therapy, and they will gladly tell you the relief they get. And unlike current ayurvedic treatments which just ask you to ingest which is half in corn syrup, Chinese medicine requires you to look at your entire life, and take into practice several chinese alligned yogic practices; e.g. active moving yoga as well medicines.

Humble apple juice is quite simply amazing, an apple a day really does keep the doctor away.

Apples contain pectin this substance helps remove any build up of toxins in the intestinal tract, they also contain beta-carotene, folic acid, vitamin C and other vitamins & minerals. Apples help get rid of bad cholesterol and prevent cancer. All this from a simple apple. And the best way to get these nutrients into your body is through freshly squeezed apple juice.


Excepted from http://www.fruitblend.co.uk

I knew there was something great to my apples , even better than OJ.

Tuesday, June 23, 2009

"I wrote poetry from the time I was a little girl. When you're a poet, it's all internal. You aren't painting; you aren't making sculpture. It's just inspiration."- Halé Tokay (Acupuncturist & Korean Martial Art Learner )

Sunday, June 21, 2009

From seattle, to san ramon, to Los Angeles. It was a nice trip, with many memories. San Ramon is still the worst place. I would avoid it, if I could go anywhere else. The people from there are by far the most annoying, as some of them kinda litter onto the scene during LA Devi Bhava.
In one satsang- Amma said about how we are always dependant on the other persons lips in life. Whatever they say , we think about ourselves, get angry, or happy, or even to kill the other person. What a very subtlely deep statement.
Devi Bhava Satsang stories


There was the story of man and woman, where he was angry with her ,but she didnt react, and he asks why don't you ever get angry; she said she goes to clean the toilet, and he says thats it for you? She said I do it with your toothbrush.
Lets see if I can recap Pranavamrita Swami's satsang, and the one Amma gave on Devi Bhava.

I came just in time downstairs, to hear the Bhava Darshan satsang.
Its hard to remember all of Amma's stories because they are extensive, and continue; in fact I have never heard anyone else I have had difficulty following because (not for the language- my skills have improved- I can understand nearly 70% better than my 30% before) .

Swami Satsang
Told the story of the three men having to use restroom. And the 90 year old. This is just a footnote. And then a story about a monk going to see a llama. He also emphasizes the phonetics between Amma (stressed long on a) and the short version- which means mother, while the latter means a turtle. A stab at the western pronounciation and lack of learning ability.

Amma Satsang
The man who dies hanging on the rope when he asks god to help and god says just let go, and he does not. Apparently he was only 2 feet from the ground but died frozen on the rope. A reminder of the lack of faith man carries. What else,...

Amma- gave malu a kiss on the way out, when She stopped by MeeraAmme, to ask about details or something in Santa Fe. And she told Amma that Malu and Karthik would join from Chicago. She saw me waiting a little down the line as Amma was exiting, and held my hand and said aren't you coming? I said no, and she said oh i thought you were coming for the tour. I do not think I will. I am taking a class. Chinese 1. And fixing my car. I will be in Seattle, to buy Malu's car. I think I will get her a lancer, or something around $5k range. Nobody in Karthik's family, including himself will be happy, but I doubt they have the balls (the LULAS) to say anything to me; of which I would even hear out. When I'm determined not even God's or Guru's opinion matters. Thats the way it should be. If you blindly listen to the Master you will never grow. It is ok up to a certain stage of unfoldment or maturity, but beyond that, you need to develop intution through meditation and japa. No other spiritual practices will help beyond that. Dhynam and Japa are like cornerstones. The Archana, should already be practiced, but japa at a fixed time, is a powerful instrument. I used to think my practices were only atrributed to my style, but later , much later I learned the early swami's did the same practices, just more intensely and longer. In my situtation, you cannot live in the world , and do that intense practice, Amma said something to me along those lines , subtely suggesting direction energy to positive rajasic habits. Like learning, and exercesing, and seva I suppose. I have never met anyone else in my life, Amma has said that too.

But back to the satsang- Now I cannot remember. Paramahansa Yogananda belived that the mind has all memories recorded (whether you actively remember it or not) , like an encylopedia of memories, you can trace back countless lives. This requires an advanced mind. Its like a person who never ran marathons decided to run with the raramuri of Mexico, who are the most prolific runners of all time; they can wear out a cheetah, a deer or any person or animal. And that is not even close to an exaggeration. These men and women , run and get into gear only by 50 miles of running, and that means they do long runs around the 400miles range in a single day or two. With no equipment, except a bottle of water, and food before and after. Pretty impressive. They also drink a type of corn beer. And smoke slightly- black cigarettes (I'm sure it has nothing to do with American tobacco). They are the ancenstors to the Hopi's who ran from southern california to peru, and the aztecs which raced along the Southern & Northern parts of the American continent. Thanks to Bindu Chechi and Vajran for the book. They are very sweet peope. May God grace the boy on his quest. I typically dislike all children after an age of say 8. Like Hari Gopal, they are incessantly annoying and have violent tendencies. But this kid, I have to say is about the nicest boy I have met. Amma apparently had told his Mom, oh you raise him very strictly with discipline huh. It takes a spiritual mind to correctly observe and judge others; doing it without the right disciplines of sadhana behind your back, you are apt to view them with the filters of your own faults.

- Three things Amma emphasized during Meditation q&a: Sneham, Satyam, and Sakshi. Being a witness to your actions, being honest, and having compassion. She said it was enough if you practiced these three. (Meaning without reading scriptures, or extensive - analysis; but none of those are bad for you . Amma used to say the scriptures are for advanced disciples and children, I remember showing Her my tattoo and reciting the verse, and Amma said oh, so you have begun reading a little. ) Meaning that I had come to a point, after practices where I could begin to understand the meanings of those statements. It will seem empty or just recitation elsewise. Books on Bhakti, and other Masters are good though, provided they are genuine masters. To get a list of genuine masters, its easy; just watching the vintage scenes where Amma takes all her disciples to , the holy places; are the masters of significance. A few; Ramana Maharishi, Parahamansa Yogananda, Ramakrishna Paramahnsa, and some other lesser known ones. But its for depending on the caliber of student. Not everyone has the same digestive quality.

Friday, June 19, 2009

9am swamiji satsang

swamiji had a good joke in his satsang today.

three old men were discussing their faculties at their various ages; 70,80,90. The 70 year old said that he can to use #1 takes 20 min, the second one at 80 said it takes him 1 hour to do# 2. The last one said, well you see i go #1 at 7am and # 2 at 8am, and have no problems. its like clockwork. Then they asked whats the problem? He said he only wakes up at 9am.
Amma asked mommy where I was last night. I had a feeling, but I went up to the room and came back and darshan ended quick. Amma left even with the music still playing. The plays were okay, colorful costumes, and nice smiles- a little empty stories , as usual of LA, but the plays had a lot of effort and even backgrounds done via lcd screen or projector. Todays darshan ended regular time for a devi bhava morning program, around 2:20 pm. Which is actually earlier than usual, the hall remains empty most of the time, except near Amma- but its not too bad. the usual san ramon crowd won't get in till tonight, so it remains nice and peaceful. I sat by Amma in the morning while Priya gave questions.

Thursday, June 18, 2009

amma said ' from the first q&a question - like the cars going by , thats how life is, you have to somehow live in the middle of it .
Like usual Amma sang hari bol- which is the best part after q&a , but the la people were all scuffling and moving, lousy security and that weird teeth smiling annoying lady. but still bhajan was good, Amma repeated the verse more than once- the kesava madhava govinda bol.
That was during the elevator walk- after darshan this morning. now Amma is giving food in the tiny dining hall, and malu & myself are in the hotel room. I didn't realize we get free internet. Tomorrow will have to find a ride back after devi bhava. great.
Amma asked me if i was eating. I said i dont like the food here. and I couldnt get the point across i guess that they should serve rice and sambar, because amma asked me if the sambar here was bad. I said i eat fruits, and she repeated it, and laughed, and said your not trying to gain weight. I suppose is accurate, because not trying to be fat, but maybe ive become fashionably skinny? lol. still after you see Ramu's mom. lol. you wont want to do that. And mommy say her on the bus eating like a ... with a huge belly. Ha-
Amma said - when she sees people its like a sculptor seeing a rock ( I dont know if Amma expressly said that - think so- all I heard was Swamiji saying it) ..



amma said if a bird poops on your head you wont mind, but if a person does you will. well for Amma both are the same.

And amma said for a crow, even baby crow is beautiful to its mom or something. *swamiji translates this awakwardly.

Los Angeles Radisson 2nd day retreat

Satsang 6/18/09


First question: " Amma you are beautiful, - You are a sundari; We want to know your thoughts, do you have a headache, - you look more beautiful every day, while I am withering or well - he said he's losing hair, and growing uglier i guess - and yeah, he said amma can find a nice person( e.g. to marry? - he said something like he wanted to marry her- innocently- which everyone including the swami's laughed too)..Oh and what do mahatamas do when faced with each other? Their talking or whatever/.

Ammas Answer:: You say I am beautiful, but really am not, you are saying that out of prema, as that increases your soul awareness increases ( a parallel of this similar story is in Paramahamsa Ramakrishna's book by M.Gupta- about Kali Devi). Then Amma said like before we were meditating outside , and the cars, and planes were going, and Amma had said imagine all sounds to be Ma- And OM , she asked if everyone had an okay meditiation, if the noise bothers them- and people said " What noise?". Amma laughed, The swamis didnt translate that. But Amma referes to it here, she says to the swami just like all of you said you had no problem during the meditation; e.g. the cars going outside the gate which is visible, (we are in the Radisson- and not like the HIlton- there i s no pretty outdoor place- ) just the pool area, but everyone was squeezed in, either on the balcony stairs,and Amma spent time looking at everyone.
So she said, Just like you all said you had no problem during meditaiton with the cars, I have no problem with anything e..g thoughts, I am like a river I just flow. Then Amma said you are all my dream (sapna). And then to Ramakrishna Swami amma said ' you are all amma arent you? so then what is it. implying everyone is the soul. Amma also said she sees everyone has flowers. Like the sun rays reflected in many waters, or pots of water, so that same energy courses through people, and everyone. Even the wild flower in the jungle to Amma is the same. ( e.g. all types of devotees and children of Amma).
Then Amma proceeded to say that, (well she told the guy dont worry your handsome and all). Amma said about the mahatamas; its like two zeros coming together, or two mirrors looking at one another.

then someone asked about suicide. and amma said dont worry about past or future. live in the present. if you cannot do that it is difficult. leave the heavy burden to god. Otherwise in suicidie, you may be carrying 10 kilos today, and next life 100 kilos.

The other person asked about down syndrome; and amma said you have to be their eyes , ears ,and thinking- children that is- you have to do that, and it is difficult for parents, but that is the only way unless they invent something in the future to cope with it; but such things are not available now , so it is difficult and saddening but compassion alone is not enough, ; for a blind man just to feel pity is not enough, you have to help him. Same way, although Amma feels sad , that is not enough- you should (to the woman who asked the question) - you should help the kids. Oh yeah, and apparently these kids dont have that viveka discrimination nerve inside their head, so it is not possible for them to make discriminatory choices; hence the parent has to be that for them, they are children (regardless of age).

the first question was the best. He asked what Amma feels, or what she is. Amma said for her this is all a dream. in two points .one meaning sritshi kartav, the creatrix of the world (this point was no elucidated by amma- swamiji briefly mentions it) second- it is dream that everyone has peace, and that they can realize the soul.
she mentioned three things : be honest, be a witness ( becoming a witness to desire, so even when involved in the action- that you will have desire, and sorrow, you cannot escape it- but such is the nature of life, and instead of getting depressed, accept it, and become more of a witness) the first guy was a lawyer, and amma said you know two lawyers will talk amongst each other- e.g. argue forever- so you need a sakshi- a witness. e.g. the judge. Amma was saying such should the attitude be when you take actions whatever they maybe. Being a witness will help remove the negative feelings associated with it, and lessen the desire more than just indulging. something like that.
Yesterday I overhead Amma saying on the phone to some bramachari- be happy. or something ,and aren't you Amma's pearl.

Oh Yeah- mommy went for darshan, and Amma said that I was sitting over there ( in the right side by the first row in a chair- in a way like I was about to get liberation then and there. And Amma leaned over smiled, raised her eyebrows, large eyes- ) And i went over and asked amma, amma said the way your sitting like your going to get saksha (liberation) right now.

Saturday, June 13, 2009

Whoever ends up winning the election in Iran, the fact that there's been a robust debate hopefully will help advance our ability to engage them in new ways."

President Obama in reference to the Iranian Election. Political scientists would call this the analysis of democratic surgency in a nation. The fact that in a democratic nation, losers of an election don't forcefully try to gain power, but wait the second process as it can and eventually will turn sides, etc.

Thursday, June 11, 2009

Food is an extremely interesting subject,” says Harvard alum Jeffrey L. Steingarten ’64, food columnist for Vogue, frequent judge on the Food Network’s “Iron Chef America,” and acclaimed food essayist. “It’s certainly more important than sex. If you want to know which subject is really more interesting to the human race, just fast for 36 hours.”
Lavoisier wrote, "Whenever one considers the most familiar objects, the simplest things, it's impossible not to be surprised to see how our ideas are vague and uncertain, and how, as a consequence, it is important to fix them by experiments and facts"

Saturday, May 16, 2009

A Twitter I Kept of a Thought.

Your eyes are so unsure. panting in the plain moonlight

Friday, May 8, 2009

You know the more you search the internet for answers, or mainly google- the more you realize, it does not know shit. Absolutely. Ridiculous.

Tuesday, May 5, 2009


So Cool. El Dia De Los Muertos... October 31st to November 2nd

Monday, May 4, 2009



Dont die in Japan....it will cost you a pretty penny.








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Polaroid is expiring the classic vintage camera which shoots out the pictures, and their instant film. The only way to get another type is fuji , which makes instant-fax i think its called. Now the two places you can buy them are on Amazon and their company site. I always found them cool, I guess- my mom had one. I think I still have a few taken with it. They don't last really. Welcome to Digital. A what kind of mixed feeling /blessing?

Sunday, May 3, 2009

Offering Food to Babies::
--- oh a side note: Olive oil's smoke temperature is too low for searing. Best is canola oil (if you care about less smoke and all) Batterie De Cuisine- The Pots and Pans & Knife skills-

wasabi is ground up fresh like sandalwood to the soft stone. How interesting.. [If you ever watch Samurai Anime; I forgot the episode but the wasabi healing plants.. and their limbs regrowing back all gecko like or lizard i suppose...]

Why is that some babies eat greens on the first try, and spit out bananas 10 times. Raises the interesting phenomena of previously stored fragments of interest. Why certain people are inherently chosen to particular foods, even despite or opposed to repetitious action into getting someone acquainted with it (e.g. giving your kid an exceptionally all round vegetarian diet only).

Work by Hormitsu. of the Horitoshi Family in Japan, Tokyo. Check his blog at Honey Tattoo. Simply Amazing.. Met his brother Horitaka , in Los Angeles.
An honor and a privilege. The illustrious world of tebori tattooing.

For anyone Who has not read Daisy Owl...

They're having a "bollywood" costume ball


I do not want to be seeing this..

Friday, May 1, 2009

fleur de sel................
Sumac.. Used in Cooking. YUms
amidst, the sounds and floating specks, like clouds of rolled dust . your vision barely comes through the fog.
At some point Miller's made a solid pilsner. At some point, Budweiser was likely a full bodied lager.

Ever Eat this!?

how about him?

do you think shes hot?
courtesy of a twitter from capetown

Thursday, April 30, 2009

On a weekday night, i head out to the local small ristorante with a so called middle eastern flare. But hey, in this part of Japan Town, more Little Tokyo where else you will you find a felafel quick. Apparently, they try not to make it greasy either. But what do two green kids from Colorado know right? Yes those Lebanese, won't stand for this type. But hey, the Beer on certain days are like three dollars, and a pitcher, well about thrice that. A small one, but if your planning to eat yourself then just a pitcher may just be. Anyways, I got to talking .. oh yeah , I tried a very dark beer. Scottish Ale. Not bad, man that stuff is heavy, I can feel its strength. No wonder, those men are huge, up their in that cold regions of the northern hemisphere. It's hot, where I am from. And Hell, this city is cooking and polluting non-stop. That's why, I wanted to introduce my type of food down here, and she said I should have it in LA, like this area or something, you can't really get authentic Indian (South) or Thai food down here. No I am not going to cook Thai food, that was a venture asked by a person who is a patron at the bar, and happens to own a chain of Thai restaurants. Man, bartenders got a lot to say, if your listening. And if you got an ear like mine, that wants all information, (as long as its credible, and I am slightly buzzed) - I'll remember it for later. Before I just journal information. Now I can write it here, and come back when I want to refresh my mind. That is my concept of the blog. For my brain. Thoughts ( I do not wish to keep inside but somewhere to be referenced- wheres the gadget or gizmo for that!?_)

But yes, she thought my idea was interesting. I think more and more people are getting to be entrepreneurs. Not the students in classrooms. The people from other jobs, places they get inspired from, traveling, and seeing, or trying and expermenting while doing something else. But these guys had the monies , where they went to school was all I needed to know. Occidental, is not a place for broke kids from east la- like the ones my roomie are tutoring (they will never see ..), lets say. But yeah- ..I met two girls, french speaking- one was milky white, and brilliantly hot. This guy from the USC band brought them over from the fraternity- (He played the biggest drum- I forgot what it was called) , I was talking to her while I was drunk, I don't remember myself looking great at that time, lack of exercise. But she told me she was half indian; father was from bombay, well give it up to him and her mother. They were not having it though. I told them in French I knew some French. And they were all laughin with each other, as I talked to them on the dance floor. They were amused, but said they liked each other, I think I might have said thats ok, but I got the hint, and I dont remember what else I did- I mean of course, I left them alone, but the rest of the night, I had some drinks. those days. i have gone through a major purification system since then. Slipping sometimes. But recently, I have tried crazy greens like turnips, parsley, spinach in my juices. These are the ones , vegetables that help fight off skin disease like sun damage, acne, skin spots, discoloration, zits, dark spots, bruises, scars ,... but it has to be taken in major doses. That makes sense. To heal you have to stay still, so the doctor says. Actually it depends on the damage and your capacity. But , its true mostly, energy needs to reorganize inside you and focus- if you are an accomplished yogi you can do this no matter what. And I have read about this, and witnessed a yogi . A very famous one, that probably at least 20 million alive, and well, know about. Her abilities- by those who admire, may not be disposed to word it scientifically, but I will say, it is the true form of this spiritual science , in the highest manner ,of the greatest caliber in its age. If you wish to find the elements, well you have to be your own scientist and test it. But you better do it before, theres no presence available to research. Time does not stop. Kala, or MahaKala, conquers everything. He , the primordial truth, Shiva, the experience of ancient oneness, with the immutable witness of the molecules that permute space and time, pervasive, and everlasting , manifestation of energies, and beings, and constant flux, .. that ancient one takes into it everything, but she the force that moves across the surface of brahman , the eternal lake of being , she is the action, behind the inaction of time . The movement , that stills, while circling the path of the wheel of dharma. She picks out what she wants, and moves across it, like a Swan, gliding in the Mansovar lake, of your mind. That grace, in the form of a woman ( the true form- the mother of creation) within ones heart awakens , to express her. But you must be given the ability to want to express her, how to express it. This is all a science, and a method. It must be applied, like healthy doses of greens to remove bad skin, it takes energy focused in a direction to conquer something. That is what I believe these fruits do, juicing them and taking it slowly, by extraction- all that helps destroy bacteria and filaments of impurities in the skin. The highest action or state of this purification is the mind ,because the subtlest is beyond the gross or physical. the casual is behind that. And behind the inner frames or bodies or layers of being is the soul. Not to say man is multiple beings. He is one truth within, but there are makeups to the personality, the physical body, and the casual body, which is released on time of death, but is bound by the karma of the doer, as long as he remains an individual link, and not able to surpass Kala. , Death will devour him. But if grace is there, if the eternal mother sheds grace, by effort on ones own part , his effort, then she will devour him. That is why the great Mother is called the eater of MahaKala. The feminine form, MahaKali, which remains every smiling beseechingly., but warning of danger too, this is a fierce path, given the sweet nectar of her love, you can cross the dangerous damages your frail ill-used and ill treated frame can take, it will act as an armour, a strength or faith to reach the goal. Without that armor, one will fall.

One of the biggest problems in Japanese monasteries now is that, the head monk is worried- that the youth , and the younger monks - there are no more enlightened monks left in Japan. At least they care. Only in India is this issue addressed, faithfully- why monks are fed, in many places, why in North India, and South as you go, there are dharmasalas , places of residence for wandering monks. This faithful, stature of a man who renounces everything, whether he be fraud or not, is given that grace of the common man. And the grace of the divine comes, that is why in that land, the land of tyaga bhumi the land of renounciation , in india countless through the ages, god descends in form for man. And many men benefit, and get enlightened, and lead others through small vessels like rivers, and man is felt and left with a brief peace.

It is the grace, of all those who do spiritual practices, who are kind in their eyes and words, who give without knowing back, and are content with that which they have, and those striving to reach the ultimate grace, disbanding from all the world- these souls, their vibrations stop the earth from sinking, it is not that science with its axis, that tells the stars, it is the powerful vibrations felt throughout even the cosmos of those who are in tune with divine understanding, and feeling that which is all- Love . The divine energy which flows from these vibrations, is that strong current of Love, which in its unadulterated, unitiarian state ,(free of people amongst each other), that is the strand which ties all the cosmos, and every particle of movement, together.
A gross understanding is the woman who lifted a car to get her child out. She moved it up by the side. This is about a half tonne of pressure. Only a serious bodybuilder could do that, and he would have to be Polish, or something, at like 300 lbs easily, or more . This woman did it. I mean she's a small example. Look at the Master.
heard my moms voice; like sunlight entering the sky...
i want to write a bhajan for chotanikhara Amma

Tuesday, April 28, 2009

Boys & Girls Guide to Getting Down

Review: Basically..
a film about partygoers in their mid 20s in los angeles.
The movie left me with a dried out feeling. I first enjoyed the beginning, some comical anecdotes to human behavior and the ever- frequent topic of discussion of the two sexes and their quest in the sexual plethora of senses and interaction. Something a sociologist is very eager to write about, and many to offer their opinions through various medias; and the number of books concerning this subject ever popular in the social mainstream. With that said, the movie followed along the said guidelines like some of the other teenage type or more really younger adult - .. I recall Road Trip; had some really funny scenes , that even at my age I still chuckle under the belt at - so to speak- like when the skinny white guy is high and imagines the dog telling him ' tell that bitch to make some blueberry pancakes." While he's smoking in the backyard of a house . The movie itself isn't spectacular, if you want that - a recent film- Spring, Summer, Autumn, Fall" - Spectacular, eye-gripping scenes, slow prose, almost like poetry the movie is awfully sublime. & Others like Eel, Takashi Miike at his most introspective of a snapshot of living. or Taste of Tea, a cute, and very charming movie, full of the wonderful aspects of this genre. Anyways- I thought this movie , would have more of a charm to showing the sexuality between man and women, the chemistry so often socialized and contextualized. It did, but yet then it went off into a coke drama- and left me with a dried out feeling. Like the feeling when you did do too much alcohol..(for me last night- 3 pitchers at the place beneath our apartments- one Stone Levitation & another- light Pilsner. my head is still tipsy)... No the movie had solid points- but alittle too much meth or lab based drug talk, which is cool I guess- you never really hear it open anyways. so All in all, guess it aint so bad after all. Just don't expect anything less.